Reputation

To build a reputation it takes time.

To destroy a reputation, it takes seconds.

I should not have step out of my house today. I made the wrong step and everything snow-balled.

No one will understand or concern about me, I'll pick up on my own.

My mistake is like a massacre. I really must turn the situation around.

Sandwiched. Sick.

Only when I'm sick then everything befall on me.

Only when I'm down, everything crumpled on me.

Only when i'm in my world, I lost everything including trust and reputation.

How can I change one's mind set of me?

TIme. How long?

I'm an excuse. Life is not an excuse. I accept what I've done wrong.

Reflection. I see myself crumpled now. I should take a long rest.

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Arhh...Choozzz...

Hmm. Let's look forward to the end of the month ok?

As promised, You'll get gifts from me.. Haha =)

Seeing you later?

Hohoho.. with misses =)

Happy Birthday my dearest

My beloved, 

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY"

muacks. muacks. muacks.

"Cuddles"

Haha. =)

Though its a simple celebration, I know you've enjoyed the whole day right? I feel so happy for you. 

Journal Entry #5

With the right formula, there was a significant change.

I'll monitor the progress. 

I'll be careful from now on.

I must not be complacent. 

GOOD Day

Setting off to P.S. to Cotton On and stuck there for about an hour or two shopping and tried many outfits. They were really nice. Then , we went to FOX and got two pretty tops. - they looked fantastic on her. 

After which , we headed to Vivo City and walked into the usual outlets to explore and tried on many tops. - never seen her so stunning before.. haha.. I like =)

We had Laksa and "you tiao" with soya bean drinks for early dinner and walked around Esprit then our final destination was GAP before hopping up the bus back to B.H.

What a wonderful day, shopping with dear. I really enjoyed.

PS: You looked stunning when I picked you from rp. Just love the way you are wearing nowadays.  

Psychological Warfare

Battling with the mind and body

Somehow, my outlook of life has changed and personal goals have adjusted. As good as a living dead, the feeling is like walking out in the winter alone. 

I tried to convince myself every day and night, dragging myself up and forcing myself to sleep. But after going through all this, I know I deserved it. No point complaining. I just accepted it.

No matter how tough, I'll not give up. I know I've enjoyed too much and it's time to go through some sufferings. 

PS: Loving is about giving everything. Letting go doesn't mean i've given up but your happiness is my greatest consolation. You must lead a happy life. I'm so fortunate to have someone who came to my life and given everything to me unconditionally. I do not have any regrets. The only regret I think is not being the one always by your side.

Journal Entry #4

The result is uncompromising.

There was no change.

It seemed unpredictable.

It's a dream. So real.

I woke up from a dream and realised it was 3pm in the afternoon. It was about "you".  I do not remember my dreams but this time, the scene was so real and I had the emotions kept in me still and what I did in the dream.

The weird part is after that I had messages coming in and I wondered if I had lost track of time.

Journal Entry #3

It's a positive sign.

The progress is slower than expected.

Inner self doing the talking

Somehow , its a nonchalant reply.  A sudden pressure acting on my head, causing me to be stupefied. The sky is getting dark. I feel awkward and detached. Am I falling apart?

Every day is a struggle. Every night is a battle. I want to overcome. I want to go against my limits.

I want to understand more but it's the hunger that comes with it.